St. Nicholas
I know its the lunar new year. & I'm suppose to be happy and all. But I'm just not.
Sometimes, hard work just doesn't pay off. Its not fair how I slug and mug and practice and whatever, but still can't make it through. And others? They don't put in as much effort [Or at least I don't think they do. I don't know.] but they breeze through. Sigh, I'm not too disheartened and I'm still going to work hard do my best and whatever. But it gets frustrating at times. Sometimes when I talk about this to others, they go "No lah, you can what. Practice harder lor." They make it sound so easy, so effortless. But its not! I don't know, but I still have a long way to go.
Anyway, thank you all yellow badges for being so encouraging and supportive heh! [:
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& then its the lunar new year. Everything is suppose to be happy and whatever. But no, it ain't. I'm sure its not very pleasant for your relatives to constantly remind you that your sister is a class monitor and your brother is some smartypants. [& I swear he doesn't study.] And then they go "So, you're in St. Nicholas right? What post dyou hold?" As if mocking the fact that I'm not a rafflesian [Hey cmon, stnicks can be better than raffles. Its just whether we want to or not.] & fine, so what if I'm not a monitor? So what if I don't hold any post in school? Its really silly how all the older generation think, and they call it the
conventional way. Whatever.
Yes and thanks to that, they decided to miss giving me angbaos. Okay fine, maybe they really did forget me. But its so hurting. C'mon, I'm standing right infront of you. And you give my siblings? Thanks alot man, for ensuring that I've got low self-esteem.
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The blogskin is too centred on certain people only. Individual faces? Come on, what happen the idea of a bonded orchestra? Fine, so they are pretty. But hey, this is string! Not some beauty pageant. Not saying that I want my face there but seriously, its stupid.I hope tomorrow will be a better day.
Swinged it at;
11:14 PM
