St. Nicholas
I'm curious.
I'm afraid.
I'm worried.
I'm disappointed.
I'm scared.
I'm sad.
I'm dejected.
I'm a thousand emotions but happy. Something that Amanda and I sang today really made me think. "Feelings go up, Feelings go down. There's lotsa feelings going round and round and round." I'm going to get through this negative period and my feelings would go uppppp. Resilience! (Yeah Miss Rockey used this word to describe binomial theorem, how totally fitting!)
Damn damn
GCE O LEVEL CHINESE RESULTS OUT TOMORROW. I wonder how the red badges are feeling. It's just one subject for me yet I'm feeling so jittery already. I'll probably hyperventilate at the end of this year when we get our results back hahaha.
Did I mention that I have yet to tell my mum about my two failed math tests and failed chem test? Oh boy, I'm going to be in such deep deep shit ): What's worse is, it's not because I didn't study ): Argh everything's just going wrong ):
Sigh now I've got butterflies in my stomach in addition to my crampsss. Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow ):
Life cuts me but the pain is all I want to feel,
Swinged it at;
7:44 PM
I'm very very very pissed right now >:( With everybody and everything.
Its so bloody unfair. My brother sits infront of his laptop and plays Rome: Total War while I was studying Chemistry. Then my father comes along and proclaim that I, the one who actually is studying and mugging my life away, is extremely free and unoccupied so I
have to help my sister create her gmail account. I did a little mental calculation and decided that helping my sister create her gmail account would be less time-consuming than if I argue with my dad and try to convince him that my brother is available. So, I helped my sister create her gmail account
without a complaint (p.s. I must have been in an okay mood then).
One week later, which is... today. My sister complained to my dad that she can't remember her email address and password. Guess what? My father starts berating me for not creating my sister's gmail account properly so much so that
SHE can't remember her email address and password. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I fail to see how that is my fault. Well duh, I don't know her password because I respect her privacy and allowed her to type in her password without me around. & now she doesn't remember her own password and its my fault?! And then he goes on about how I never care about my family and how I'm always so friends-oriented, irresponsible because I didn't even remember my sister's password for her, never properly done anything for my sister yadda yadda. To add fuel to the fire, my brother goes "Aiyoh, why you so angry for, so temperamental!"
Y'know what, I'm so fuming angry I think I'm going to say this:
To f**k with my whole family.
I'm angry with myself too. For screwing my academic up. For a billion other things I can't think of right now. Arghhh >;|
I feel like I'm blowing things up, but that's what fuming angry people do right? Say yes. Sigh whatever, goodbye.
Swinged it at;
2:51 PM
Today was damn tiring, played like the same few pieces thousands of times. Not to mention the fact that yellows came at like 6.15 in the morning? Which means I had to wake up at 5.30, which I did (unlike Amanda that pigass) :D To top it off, I slept at 11.45 yesterday night /:
Okay cut the chase, I'm exhausted.
What I'm doing here, I don't know. I should go for a nap but I just can't stop thinking that I have to:
1) Do commonwealth essay. I can't decide on a plot for my story!
2) Study for Emaths Circles test, I've got to do well for this one! /:
3) Complete my physics worksheet 30
4) Do Chem tys questions for Metals.
5) (Maybe) start studying for SS test on friday /:
Anyway, today was a great day until ____ came along and there was this atmosphere that hung damn heavily in the room. I think it's a mixture of anxiety and annoyance. To make things worse... well nevermind let's not get into that.
KFC with Grace Wm Manda Cass SX WJ was alright I guess. Just that there was this annoying girl who took up a table for 6 on her own and we were all really annoyed cause she didn't have the initiative to offer us her table >:/ Came home after that, I'm trying to think up of something for my essay... Damn I have no imaginationnn. On a side note, about 80 secones put down their names to show that they're interested in String!
Sigh been pretty bad-tempered lately. I get pissed for the weirdest / oldest reasons so yeah if you've suffered my wrath, I'm sorryyy (: Okay with that, I'm going to start physics. (Or sleep?)
Swinged it at;
4:25 PM
Today is the first day of school.
Today is the first time I failed my goddamn maths test. ):
Today is the first time I saw WenMan so crazily high (She was imitating Miss Swan and was sucessful)
Damnit Trigooo I hate you ): Shit I'm so going to make sure I score for the next test ): Maybe I should stop whining and start working ): Damn Sec4 life ):
Okay life's great, I've only got 3 tests next week. Or maybe more. Time to start work anyway /:
P.s. Hello Amanda boody buddy I'm praying that I can sit with / near you for this term, aren't you honoured? (:
Swinged it at;
9:03 PM