St. Nicholas
I think we're the most horrible level ever. The games we plan are boring. We can't maintain peace and order in the mep room. We fail to engage everybody. Rah my god, I feel like a failure.
So anyway, sectionals were quite alright. & Mary-Anne left early again today. ): Then I went to popular after school to get my long-awaited physics assessment books. There was this wierd guy standing next to me, staring uninterestedly at the books. [Apparently, he has been forced to purchase the assessment books while I, might even have to pay for them myself.] Okay so our comversation went like this:
Me: Excuse me. [He was blocking my way and I've been standing there for ages.]He: (Steps aside) Forced to buy assessment books too?Me: Huh? No luh, I want these books. He: Siao ah. My parents give me $100 for books, and they expect me to spend all. Really ki-xiao one you know.Me: Erm okay.C'mon man, I might even have to pay for my assessment books myself! & he's got $100 to spend and he's complaining, sheesh. All the ungrateful people in the world. In the end I got only one book. I swear assessment books are burning a hole in my parent's pocket!
& Everyday, I'm constantly reminded of how extra I am. Everything seems
to revolve around the same 3 people. They do all the decision-making, and
everything is in their favour. Two of them are quite alright, they consult the
others and try to include the others.
But the last one? She doesn't give a damn. We're only her spare tires, her
back-up if the other two ain't there. Too absorbed in having fun, getting
attention, she forgets about the rest. She hurts us, un-noticingly and
unfeelingly. But yet, when she isn't given the usual amount of attention she
gets, she starts whining and complaining about how everything is prejudiced, and
how she is so excluded, expecting her spare tires to comfort her and in a way,
give her the attention she craves.
I don't understand her and I think I never will.
My god, I haven't even started on my chinese hw. 2 books in a week is madness I tell you! Rahhh, so much for a holiday teachers. /:
Swinged it at;
10:47 PM