St. Nicholas
> Funny how I set off from home, hoping to be rid of melancholy, just to be given more reasons to be melancholic.
> Funny how I reached my paternal side's aunt's house, hoping for an easter egg to make me smile, but watched a quarrel & realised how much my aunts and uncles have suffered trying to take good care of my grandma.
> Funny how I return home, hoping to find solace in my blog but finding none.
> Funny how I'm typing now, although I badly want to cry, scream and shout "WHY?!" out of my window.
> Funny how I notice the hubbub all around me but never experiencing it.
> Funny how I just keep reminding myself that it's my own fault, and maybe I could have handled it all differently.
> Funny how I feel like an outcast although I know I'm not one, constantly reminding myself of who is there for me.
> Funny how I expected something reassuring but it didn't happen.
> Funny how I expected something bad and sad & it happened.
> Funny how I thought you'll cared but I realise now you don't.
> Funny how you'll left me out, but the very next minute, made me feel bad for even thinking so. Inconsistency, I dread it.
> Funny how I never thought we were close, but you'll care so much for me <3
> Funny how I try my best but nothing comes out of it.
> Funny how I expected your words to be there to comfort me, but I couldn't find them.
> Funny how I wanted to write you a letter of appreciation but find no reason to do so now.
> Funny how this day could be good friday.
Claudice: Why'd you go to Bali, I need to talk to you so bad. ):You'll tell me its not the way I think it is, I tell myself that its not the way I think it is. But I guess I'm just not handling this too well, and you'll have every reason to be this way. Stop telling me its not so because every other action shows me so. Just stop it. [Now I don't know who I'm talking to. Am I referring to you'll or myself?]
Hello issy, I guess I would be telling a lie if I say "I'm fine." I'm sure you're doing well and having a good time. CO was brilliant, Jane is fantastic (:
Swinged it at;
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