3Diligence is so much love mannn :D


Virya, Jane, me & Lamepok! Lovely lovely table partners, I'm going to miss all of you so much ):


Me, Lamepok, Nat, ChiaErn, Amanda, Anna & Diana!


A very random and hilarous photo of Lamepok with her extremely early birthday cake hehe.

I shall start with thursday :D

THURSDAY:

I screwed chemistry test, and I didn't know what I was writing. & Bravo Jessica, you didn't even finish your math paper when people had like 20 minutes to check! Go and jump down, NOW.

But the rest of the day was quite slack, expecially SS and English! Then wow, I actually managed to get the classroom and balcony cleared within like an hour. And we had a mountain high of boxes and rubbish blocking the entrance of our classroom teehee. Hahaha, of course with much much much help and initiative from lovely lovely 3DILIGENCE! (:

Then class party was a blast! Rite pizzas were heavenly. ChiaErn and I experimented with the chilli powder, since it looked so harmless. But we were breathing out fire after that hehe. Anyway the entire class took alota photos today, I DON'T KNOW WHY HAHAHA.
I'm going to miss my table partners so much!! Cocky, sleepy & really loud Virya, mugger and guaikia Jane, & I hate to say this, but I'll miss lamepok (AKA Huiting) alot also! I can't wait for POTC 3 with them coming fridayyy :D

PPR was alright, I improved. (: I know so many other people improved also, and improved by so much more too. But its okay, I met my expectations and I'm satisfied. Okay, maybe cause I lowered my standards for this term. But still, I met them so thats an accomplishment in a way :D & I told myself, my goal shall be whatever AHMA Amanda gets. But when I heard she got L1R5 7, I yelled "SIAO AH!" abit too loudly hehe. How you juggle studies, viola, piano, tennis & tuitions so well Amanda, I don't know. :D

TODAY:

Woke up damn early and followed my mum on the car. Then reached macs at 8.45, to meet Cassandra and Natalie. We bought our food then Amanda appeared a while later. Amanda and I bought ourselves SHREK ears. & they're damn cute!!

Then we were quite productive, since there were only four of us. We kinda got everything drafted out. We went to the playground after that! I swear I have no childhood, I don't know how to operate the swing on my own teehee.

I'm like reading "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens" now and I realised I don't practice a single one of those habits :O Shit, maybe thats why I feel that I put in effort, but there are no results. I'm doing it ALL WRONG. Okay, this holiday is time to correct myself.
Wheehee, I feel so darn inspired now. I'm like asking every prodigy I know so that I can set my goal for next term!

Anyway, it has been a good day, & I'm going to file my stuff. My files are as thick or otherwise thicker than my Physics textbook. :D
& Tiffany is the best phone partner you can ever have (:

Swinged it at; 6:59 PM



Hello JoHsi, I'll miss all your encouragements alot ):


Bye lesbian partner ):

Farewell is over ): & this is where we say goodbye. I'm going to miss red badges so much, Strings will be weird without them. I regret, there was so much more I could have done before this day.

On a happier note though, YAY FOR:
- MARY-ANNE, DON'T WORRY SO MUCH! :D
- AMANDA, SEE!! YOU DID IT, PRESIDENT LEH! & WE'LL BE BEHIND YOU ALL THE WAY :D
- CASSANDRA, STRINGS IS VIOLISTS DOMINATED hahahaha. :D
- WENMAN, we're not surprised teeheehee. :D
- WENGJUN, okay, I'm a little surprised. I thought you fitted the student conductor role. But we're going to have such a good time with you as sectional leader man tehheh. :D
- HUITING, somemore say you won't get anything huh? I shall hit your head tomorrow :D
- CLAUDICE, so much for convincing yourself you won't get it :D
- GRACE, hey, you escaped the storeroom! :D
- NATALIE, sotonggg secretary! Hahaha, don't fret so much :D

Pizza was alright. Not enough left for violists though ): Debbie treated us to milo dinosaurs!! (:
Natalie and I waited in the eerie darkness and silence of the school after WenMan left for our parents. Nat accompanied me for that 3 minutes while I waited for my mum. :D

ANYWAY, I'M SO SORRY SHIREENA, RACHEL, JANA, SAMANTHA & DEBBIE!! I know I did a bad job of the notes, I'll give you'll something during the june camp instead :D

Chemistry test on thursday, and I can't do a single question in the chemistry worksheet. Applause please.

I always wanted to be that someone whom you'll be proud of. But it's difficult to live up to your high expectations. As long as I'm happy with it, please make an effort to be happy too.

Swinged it at; 9:11 PM


Things aren't going well at all... Not a single bit. & the worse thing is, I don't even feel like talking about it. Not to you in particular.

Maybe its just me, but at times, you're in the wrong too. Accept that.

P.s. Please don't question the contents of this post.

Swinged it at; 9:08 PM


I screwed everything I did todayyy, but I shall try not to think too much about them. Try try tryyy!

Conference was gibberish, I don't know why, but I was worrying about MEP Practical then, and I wasn't even concentrating. Then when I realised "Shit, Jessica, you're talking infront of a whole cohort and you don't know what you said." I started shaking, real badlyyy. Embarassing much? I think so. Sigh nevermind anywayyy, we're not going to win this. But it's the journey that counts and not the results!


Swinged it at; 10:29 PM


This is my 175th post, wow.

Have I ever mentioned that Natalie, yes, I'm talking about the blur sotong one, is the best comfort-er in the whole wide world? Just 45 minutes ago, I was half crying, half screaming on the phone saying: I can't do it. & she actually managed to get me going to complete my piece. Thank you Natalie, although you won't see this, and I love you to bits! <3
It all started with me sight reading my piece only today. & as you know, practical is tomorrow. Okay so anyway I've finished sight reading my piece and it sounds like gibberish still, with more mistakes than there are pimples on my face. But at least I can play through the whole piece. I'm ready to flunk tomorrow, and bear consequences of my own procrastination and bad attitude.

I haven't learn tingxie, and haven't done my math homework. And for some weird reason, my shoulder hurts. Oww, I should start mugging. But what am I doing here?

Jessica, you suck and your attitude is as rotten as a rotten apple.

Swinged it at; 11:13 PM


I don't know why you mind so much, it was just a little paragraph of words. What is my blog for, if not to vent my frustration on? & I thought I would at least see something comforting but you just have to dig up something I thought we've all forgotten. But I can't blame you: what is your blog for, if not to vent your frustration on?
I still love you for being there and being you, and I know I don't resent you.

Jubilate IV is over ): Last official performance with the red badges and I had to rush off. I'm sorry 3D, I know I promised to take a photo with you all... But we still have next year aye? Although I am rather disappointed that I missed my flowers tehheh.
But anyway, performance was good, zombies were hahahaha. Green badges did a wonderful job with the chairs, and SuXian's&Carmen's&LowAnn's screams were whoohoo. Although, my grandpa was shaking his head at me when I saw him... traditional beliefs. -.-

I know I shocked alot of people yesterday, just bursting into tears like that. But thank you:

Yellow Badges! [This is inclusive of Michelle, well duh, she's always included.] For being there & being such a comfort. :D

Blue Badges! For being concerned and making me feel loved. Thank you Carmen, for all the wunnerful sms-es. Especially, Kimberly, whom I'm not going to have my stand partner anymore ): You always say the right stuff to comfort and cheer me up!

Red Badges, especially Rachel, the best sectional leader you can ever have, for the long sms.

Mary-Anne! For accompanying me into the concert hall. <3

Hey, that makes up the entire SNSO. Hahahaha, quoted from Rachel "We shine as a section, as an orchestra, as a school."
Because SNSO is love.

Swinged it at; 12:58 PM


It is 9 May today and Physics test is over, something has been lifted from inside of me. I guess thats the only test that weighed so heavily on my mind since I failed it last term.

Chemistry was really badly done, I need to do something about it. Maybe I've been too overconfident about Chem, I need to re-check myself. & It's not about being the last 10% in my class, it's about not meeting my own expectations. I've been telling myself constantly to not compare myself with others, and to just meet my expectations. But it doesn't seem to make me any happier with myself. Aunt, I'm sorry I wasted your efforts. ):

Maths, so much for being my best subject, it was rather badly done too. I'm getting too full of myself, I need to work hard for everything and anything whether I'm good in it or not. Co-ordinate geometry test tomorrow, I'd better buck up, I'm letting everybody down. & most importantly, myself.

Chinese, I've improved I'm happy. I need to continue working on it if I want an A1 for chinese at the end of this year. I'm being positive here! :O

Pure geography, screwed. Don't just memorise facts, learn to apply them appropriately! I need to do that in order to meet my own expectations. Nevermind if I'm the last in class, as long as I meet my own expectations.

SS+History, more or less alright I think. But it is rather unpredicatable and I'm afraid I'll screw it up sometime soon.

MEP. Considering that I just started learning my piece by myself and practical is next monday, I am not going to pass this. To top it off, I have no piano teacher. I have the weekend to chiong. C'mon I can do this, if I put in enough effort and practice smartly.
You tell me to raise my expectations & put more effort in for MEP, lower my expectations for the rest of the subjects. But you have to understand that I do not intend on making music my profession unlike you. Different people have different talents in different areas. I do not think it worthwhile, tearing my hair out, when I know it is difficult for me to rise above the rest. Why not do something which I'm actually better in, and more interested in? Please understand, it makes me cringe hearing you chide me.

I should study for Co-ordinate geometry test now, I'm really dead dead dead.
& I'm so so sorry Yuexiu, I couldn't change the seat numbers, I understand why you don't want to go. & I haven't had a good talk with you for ages and ages. I want quality time with my YueXiu! Soon, when we're both free (:

Swinged it at; 7:04 PM


Today was much fun, but tiring.

Woke up at like 7am today to make my way to ChiaErn's house for PW and picked Amanda up along the way. So then we completed quite alot of stuff for PW, and I added a little Jessica touch to the PW script! :D
& we ordered Rite pizza again. Delicious, but I was so full after that. Cheesy pizza and pepperoni, yum yum! (:

Then Amanda and I left at around 12pm to make our way to Kebun Baru CC. Bus took about 15 minutes, and we walked another 10 minutes. I bought pirated kinder surprises and chicken biscuits! Ooooh heavenly. Then went to Macs, and me being a pig, bought myself a McNugget meal and ate it. It was the stationery shop next. Amanda bought me a little monkey which is freaking cute I swear! It's because of this bet she made with me, although hey Amanda, you didn't have to buy me that monkey! Thank you Amandaaa, I love you hell loads! Then to the CC we go, only Amanda, Cass, WenMan and I left. Rather pathetic I know. So we did our stuff and I love the box I did! I'm being ego here, but hahaha, its one of my best handiwork since the past 14 years!

Okay, then I walked back to my old house to wait for my mum who eventually picked me up at like 6.30pm. Yupp, I came home and I saw the most lovely thing on my bed! The wrapping was so nice, I was afraid that I will destroy it. My aunt bought me a blue monkey! Whatever for, I don't know. But it's so darn cute and I love my aunt hell loads too!



Swinged it at; 8:14 PM