St. Nicholas
It is 9 May today and
Physics test is over, something has been lifted from inside of me. I guess thats the only test that weighed so heavily on my mind since I failed it last term.
Chemistry was really badly done, I need to do something about it. Maybe I've been too overconfident about Chem, I need to re-check myself. & It's not about being the last 10% in my class, it's about not meeting my own expectations. I've been telling myself constantly to not compare myself with others, and to just meet my expectations. But it doesn't seem to make me any happier with myself.
Aunt, I'm sorry I wasted your efforts. ):Maths, so much for being my best subject, it was rather badly done too. I'm getting too full of myself, I need to work hard for everything and anything whether I'm good in it or not. Co-ordinate geometry test tomorrow, I'd better buck up, I'm letting everybody down. & most importantly, myself.
Chinese, I've improved I'm happy. I need to continue working on it if I want an A1 for chinese at the end of this year. I'm being positive here! :O
Pure geography, screwed. Don't just memorise facts, learn to apply them appropriately! I need to do that in order to meet my own expectations. Nevermind if I'm the last in class, as long as I meet my own expectations.
SS+History, more or less alright I think. But it is rather unpredicatable and I'm afraid I'll screw it up sometime soon.
MEP. Considering that I just started learning my piece by myself and practical is next monday, I am not going to pass this. To top it off, I have no piano teacher. I have the weekend to chiong. C'mon I can do this, if I put in enough effort and practice smartly.
You tell me to raise my expectations & put more effort in for MEP, lower my expectations for the rest of the subjects. But you have to understand that I do not intend on making music my profession unlike you. Different people have different talents in different areas. I do not think it worthwhile, tearing my hair out, when I know it is difficult for me to rise above the rest. Why not do something which I'm actually better in, and more interested in? Please understand, it makes me cringe hearing you chide me.I should study for Co-ordinate geometry test now, I'm really dead dead dead.
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I'm so so sorry Yuexiu, I couldn't change the seat numbers, I understand why you don't want to go. & I haven't had a good talk with you for ages and ages. I want quality time with my YueXiu! Soon, when we're both free (:
Swinged it at;
7:04 PM