Draco Malfoy was on screen for 10 seconds. Cho Chang is fatter than ever. Ron looks like a dog who needs a haircut. Harry, on the other hand, probably got over-shaved.
Sirius probably finally realised shaving is essential in life. Dumbledore has a pot belly (did they mention that in the book?)

I like Hermione, Ginny & Tonks (:

Watched Big Mama 2 from 3am - 5am, need I say more?

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"Hello? OHMYGOD ITS EIGHT THIRTY! I'M SO SORRY MRS TAN, HOW HOW HOW!" Great to hear Mrs Tan's voice first thing in the morning. I bloody hell overslept /: Late for CIP at kwong wai sin hospital. Met Lianna and we talked to this old aunty before meeting up with the origami people.

In chinese: "Next time you come, you buy $1 Chee Cheong Fun for me can? I very long never eat already, I'm always so hungry here. It'll be so wonderful to taste Chee Cheong Fun, only $1!"
Those words hit home alright. Surprising how I've never noticed any of these little things in life. CheeCheongFan, Chicken Rice, Ang Ku Kueh. When did I last eat these? Probably yesterday. At times, I've even pushed these delicacies away. I'll only miss them when I can't have them anymore.

Macs with Amanda Lianna HuiTing MeiQin (:

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"Seems like your SIM card has been locked by accident. Try not to off your phone in the future, perhaps it triggered off Singtel's security system. Sorry kiddo, if you want a SIM card replacement, I need your sponsor (In other words, your father) to be here although the phone is under your name. Come again tomorrow. ... Next!"

!!!

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I suddenly like Fall Out Boy alot. Maybe because whenever I play their cd, the first line I hear is:
Baby, Seasons change but people don't;

Swinged it at; 9:36 PM




HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATALIE LOVE ! <3
This post is like specially for you :O Because you were there when nobody else was (:

Swinged it at; 9:15 PM


I was quiet early this morning because of _______________________.
I was even quieter approaching noon because of __________________.
I was a mute at noon because of _____________________________.

But somehow (I don't know how), Nat cheered me up a little. Maybe because that naughty girl wrote on my left hand "Jessica thinks Natalie rocks" and a smiley face that turned out looking like that :( , which kind of made me smile. Ironically, I don't know why.

Success is never final,
Failure is never fatal,
Courage is what counts.

Easy words, but it's near impossible to believe in them. Why is it so hard to learn from one's mistakes and failures, why do things have to be so inhumanely cruel, why doesn't anything work out.
I'm waiting for my fairy godmother (who will never appear) to whisk me away into a pumpkin carriage (which will never exist) and let me live a life of fantasy (when will that be?).

Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a mistake

Swinged it at; 5:45 PM



I love this monkeyyy! So retarded. Thank you Mary-Anne! I'm going to sleep with it :D

Thank you YueXiu! For that wallet which is supposed to look like a monkey hahahah. & I love that bookmark!!

Thank you Anna Diana Natalie ChiaErn HuiTing Lianna for this retarded head-shaking monkey! It's solar powered hahahahaha. It's so cute :D

Thank you Joey partner, you actually remembered my bday!! -claps for you. I like the monkey alot, it's so retarded when it vibrates!

Thank you Amanda Cassandra WenMan for the mug! Although I spent 5 minutes wondering how to take off the cover hahahaha :D

What am I doing here, there's physics test tomorrow and I haven't started studying. But afterall, this is only once a year :D
But I'd better study for physics test ANYWAY.

I can't wait for my bday present from kimberlu teehee :D

Swinged it at; 10:20 PM


Yesterday was Friday the 13th, it was bad alright.

The day started off quite good, except that my temperature was 37.5 degree celcius. Lianna and Amanda just had to tell mrs tan /: Well, at least nobody attempted to send me home!! :D then recess was spent mugging with Lianna Amanda Mary-Anne Natalie, not very productive I must say. Rushed back to class for photo-taking, and we just took 3 of the same shots because we ran out of time -.- Could have done better for chemistry test, sigh. & my math is seriously going down the drain doubt anybody will understand though.

Lunch was orange bowl :D Haven't eaten it for a long long long time so I guess it was quite refreshing (: String was quite... don't know. My headache started to develop during sectionals, and once again, the orchestra just won't shut up. Claudice & WenMannn don't feel so sad (:

& I felt like a spoilt kid for like half of yesterday hahaha. I just told WenMan "I want a pompom monkey!" And she went to get one for me, awwww. Thank you WenMannnn! Then after lunch Amanda went to buy Mars Bars. I just went "I want one!" and she gave one to me hahaha. Thank you Amanda boody pooty!

Todayyy was spent reading and reading and reading. I woke up and started reading my book (The one that Claud said was sadistic -.-) from 10-3pm :D The storyline was damn complex with many twists and turns and going back in time. But it was a good read, cause it was very nice and really got your mind working. It was rather sad though, and involved alot of mentally unstable people eek. Murderrrrr. Hahaha, now I'm starting on another book by the same author :D

No matter how much I try,
You never fail to make me feel stupid.

Swinged it at; 4:47 PM


Maybe String wasn't that bad afterall,

I expected String to be a drag as usual, with me sitting in some secluded corner trying to entertain myself by scrutinising the score. Buttt, today was much better cause we played Respighi, though only the 4th movement. Anyway blah blah, I was more cheery today I guess. Bimbo was pissed in like the first half of cca, it felt so weird trying to cheer her up. Its usually the other way round hahahaha. But the day ended with Bimbo and her can-can as usual (:

So much for going for chemistry remedial, I ended reading my storybook right infront of Johnny Hoo. I totally lack discipline, and I really do hope I get some serious studying done with Amanda Boody Pooty + Yellows tomorrow. Although I seriously seriously doubt it hahaha.

I'm like suppose to do Physics now. & I owe Grace Bimbo Smarty her birthday card! Sighhh, I feel so sian now that I'm back home. No Bimbo to distract me, no Amanda to make stupid faces, no WenMan to be extremely nice, no WengJun to remind me its her birthday etc. All I've got is this stinking, and ever-growing, pile of homework /:

& It was just a beautiful lie;

Swinged it at; 8:24 PM



HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE BIMBO SMARTY! You know how contradicting that sounds, hahahaha. Bimbos aren't suppose to be smart! But I love you anywayyy and that must be your greatest present!! I owe you millions billions zillions for listening to all my crap, worries, complains, etcetra etcetra hahahaha. You're one of those I trust most, and may your day be filled with my love for you :D


HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON! Birthday boys don't cry dear, hahahaha. I really hope you like your aeroplane/helicopter/some flying thingy. Just remember that it's fragile and you can't sit on it / crash it into the wall / vent your frustration on it :D


HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTABEL! Although I really doubt you'll see this hahaha. Of course I remembered your birthday :D


Oh and hahahaha don't worry it's not Mary-Anne's birthday :D But anywayyy thank you Mary-Anne cause I feel alot alot better now! Somehow when I think back on it, it seems kind of stupid to even think that __________. Cause I know all of them really didn't mean it, but I just can't help feeling that __________________. But that's like 2 out of don't know how many, so hahahaha. I love you alot!

I bought something for Amanda & Mary-Anne from the Dover Park MRT station's provision shop :D Stupid Amanda boody pooty insists that I write her a really long letter. & on top of it, I owe YueXiu a non-emo letter and Grace her birthday card!!

Not to mention homeworkkk and omgz PHYSICS. Amanda boody pooty, you promised to stay back on wednesday with me to study!! Hahahaha, anyway this wednesday is like some mass yellow day. :D

By the way Nat, I think you need engwish tuition. It's cloZe passage, not cloSe passage hahahaha!

I really can't help wondering if __________, but somehow it doesn't seem to matter much now.

Swinged it at; 7:05 PM


Even if I don't show it, I feel as ____ as you, you, you and you. Okay maybe there should be more you(s). But everybody's reactions, actions etc make me feel really _______. It's as if my mother just died (touch wood!!), but you'll are the ones crying and mourning. I'm not saying that I should be the only sad one, but well you get what I mean.

I always thought that I was who I am, that I've been accepted as me mine myself. I thought I was out in the sun, in the fun. But I guess I've always been in ___ shadow, holding a torchlight and telling myself it's the sun. Sometimes I really wonder if it hadn't been for ______, will y'all even ______________?

Bimbo helped a little, although I didn't tell her everything. I got so close to telling you, but I'm kinda glad you had to go. I would have felt so dumb if I did.
These few weeks have really shown me who I'm really seen as. In all of your eyes, I'm not Jessica, I'm just _______________. Maybe I'm just thinking too much, maybe the sun just shines 24/7.

Because now the torchlight has finally ran out of batteries and I'm left stranded in the dark.

Swinged it at; 11:20 PM


Chinese oral is over, what a relief. I don't know if it was screwed or not, but I guessed quite a few words in the passage. & the luntan part was horrid, I didn't know why the examiners keep asking me questions when I had so much to say. Not like I paused for more than 5 seconds or something. And I swear they need to be taught some manners, and not cut a student off in mid-sentence with a cold, thank-you.

Anyway then sent WengJun home since I met her on the way out and goodness me, my sister joined Choir. She and I so have nothing in common. Okay, except for the fact that she claims she likes: monkeys, the colour yellow, mathematics, and mystery books; When she so obviously loves: cows, the colour baby pink, not a single subject, and romance books. And yes, she is only nine years old. Sometimes, she makes me feel childish kajfdnkgj.
Hey, I'm not saying you have to read romance books to be mature, don't get the wrong idea. :D

Anyway AMaths and San Guo Yan Yi test tomorrow, somebodykillmeplease. & oh bravo, I can't wait for that super challenging pure geography test TSW set for us. It's on friday bloody shit. By the way have I mentioned that I haven't gotten past the first chapter of sanguoyanyi?

Kimberlu (oh look, nice name) claims I'm having menopause but I doubt so hahahaha. I think I'm still in possession of a healthy body which, well, operates like it should. I'm just mentally down, and the fact that I know what present Kimberlu is going to give me doesn't seem to produce a jumping-for-joy Jessica. By the way Kimberlu, my birthday is on the 16th, and its only 4th July! Oh well, too bad you love me too much teehee :D

This post is so randomly organised I don't know what I've typed. But I should go and bury my head in math assessments soon. Well okay fine, now.
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Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.

How can I love you
If you just don't talk to me, babe.

Swinged it at; 6:20 PM


I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

You're right, I don't even recognise myself now. I get angry over nothing, and I'm passive about happy things. I need to go and look for myself, back in the past, back when these snide thoughts haven't crept up on me. How funny, I've always thought that I've finally matured. But I haven't, and maybe I never will.

I don't think I've been a good girl, but it seems like eternity since you last yelled at me. Have I frustrated you so much that you don't even want to care anymore? I know I've always blamed you for all these academic glitches, things that I can't achieve. Back then, I told you I didn't want them and now I do. Please don't take them away.

I feel like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde. Even my monkeys don't even seem to smile at me anymore. What was a smile is now a scowl. I don't know what I'm doing, and I want to give up.

Maybe I should,

Swinged it at; 10:29 PM


I feel happier, I've got some stuff sorted out. :D I'm currently eating Nata De Coco and have I mentioned that I grew 0.4cm and gained 0.2 kg!!! That's something to celebrate about at least. Oh grandparents just came back with more food, oh the joy :D

I have nothing to blog about, just that Sarah Rayne is currently my favourite-est author (: Her stories are gory, grotesque and totally gross. The 3 Gs!

You know I'll put in that effort, even if I haven't done so for the past don't know how long. But you know I'll never want you to just walk out of my life like that. Go for what you want, do what you want. It's your life, your way and there's no need for guilt. (:

Swinged it at; 10:23 PM