Even if I don't show it, I feel as ____ as you, you, you and you. Okay maybe there should be more you(s). But everybody's reactions, actions etc make me feel really _______. It's as if my mother just died (touch wood!!), but you'll are the ones crying and mourning. I'm not saying that I should be the only sad one, but well you get what I mean.

I always thought that I was who I am, that I've been accepted as me mine myself. I thought I was out in the sun, in the fun. But I guess I've always been in ___ shadow, holding a torchlight and telling myself it's the sun. Sometimes I really wonder if it hadn't been for ______, will y'all even ______________?

Bimbo helped a little, although I didn't tell her everything. I got so close to telling you, but I'm kinda glad you had to go. I would have felt so dumb if I did.
These few weeks have really shown me who I'm really seen as. In all of your eyes, I'm not Jessica, I'm just _______________. Maybe I'm just thinking too much, maybe the sun just shines 24/7.

Because now the torchlight has finally ran out of batteries and I'm left stranded in the dark.

Swinged it at; 11:20 PM