St. Nicholas
HURRR I'M FRUSTRATED.
WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO GET ONE BLOODY PASSAGE RIGHT.
WHY CAN'T I SLIDE PROPERLY AND PLAY IN TUNE.
WHY CAN'T I CROSS STRINGS WITHOUT HITTING OTHER STRINGS AS WELL.
WHY CAN'T I PLAY RUNNING NOTES SMOOTHLY.
WHY CAN'T I DO GODDAMN SYNCOPATIONS.
WHY CAN'T I DO A NICE VIBRATO ON MY FOURTH FINGER.
currently, my head is drowning in a thousand "why"s, "urgh"s but no "because"s. i need to study geography but i can't concentrate cause i can't stop thinking about how mep practical is in 2 weeks time and i'm neither ready for violin nor piano, nevermind duet ): hurrr, its not as if i'm not trying. i am! but it's not working damnit.
in addition, i'm going to practice with accompaniment for violin with rebecca ho coming thursday and i really don't want to waste her time! i must get my vivaldi and faure right no matter what.
i hate it so much when people look at me and go "well lucky you, you've got music to help you". apparently, in their eyes, being able to play the violin earns you a one-way ticket to a top jc and a top university.
well excuse me, there are at least a billion violinists out there. i'm like a freaking weed in the middle of a bouquet of flowers when compared to those violinists. besides, i do pay a price for being a violinist. i spend time practicing, rehearsing, etc etc. it's not as if we MEP girls can just pick up a goddamn instrument and play out a virtuosic piece for you.
i hate it when people look at MEP girls and go "well lucky you, you've got MEP to pull you through" before they start ranting on about how they only got an A2 for some humanities, whining and whining away while we sit there and think "well thats nice, i haven't been able to pass any of my humanities and i'm currently scoring a d7 for mep despite putting in one hour of effort daily. i wonder what you do during that hour i spend on my violin?"
i hate it when people don't understand the amount of time we spend on music, amount of effort we put in just to play a musical instrument. they just think you lead the most carefree life ever, before they look at you and say with envy "well lucky you, you've got music to help you"
i hate it when people don't understand how much time they actually do have on their hands. they go "yknow i didn't manage to study enough yesterday! oh no i'm going to fail" and when you reply sympathetically "me too" they turn around and tell you to shut up. and of course, you've guessed it, they'll say "but it's okay for you. lucky you, you've got music to help you"
seriously, are these people blind, stupid or just plain self-centred!? i'm not some immortal who has nothing to complain about you know. just because i go to school smiling everyday doesn't mean life is smooth-sailing for me. so please for goodness sake, stop saying "well lucky you, you've got music to help you" or i won't be held accountable if you recieve a tight slap across your smug face.
the problem with music is you've got to be DAMN BLOODY GOOD if you actually want to be able to excel in it. being average isn't enough. i'm in a foul mood so i hope these people would just shut up and stop glaring at you whenever you wish to speak about your troubles, before moving on to say "what are you complaining about, you've got music to help you"
argh
what's wrong with these people
whats wrong with me >:(
Swinged it at;
3:16 PM
